So, this weekend is my first step to decorate my apt. Yep. Step 1: Admit you have tons of crap. It was tough. I was in the denial. I kept buying things to cover up the fact I have so many things. But, in fact, I have so many things. I have so many video games. I have so many unused computer parts. I have so many clothes. I think at least I can admit I have lots of stuff, that’s a good start! No more denial. I decided to dig into my forbidden bed room closet in this afternoon. What did I find, well, stuff, my old PC, monitor, clothes (which I haven’t worn for more than a year), shoes, and some boxes. Right away, I took my old PC and monitor to the recycle center in this afternoon. It was super quick because once I started thinking about it, I would be unable to throw them away! I built my PC! It was like my baby! My monitor was made by Sony, and Sony even doesn’t make computer monitor anymore!! I smell premier auctions!! Maybe if I held on to it for several years, maybe my Sony monitor became double the its original price!! Well, this kinda stuff I would be thinking if I didn’t take my old junk out of my apt right away. Since I was heading to the recycling center, I took all old magazines and old phone books. I am so awesome!

After I dropped off my junk at the recycling center, I started putting my old clothes into the trash bag. Geeez, this was painful. I tried to not think about how much I paid and just thinking about how long I hadn’t worn these clothes. So, I ended up filling whole trash bag. Phew. I will take this to Goodwill or Salvation Army tomorrow... But, I do still have lots of clothes. Why?

Although I was able to organize my closet, my room is still messy and not so beautiful. It’s like you work out so hard and lost 5% of body fat, but you didn’t lose any weight. Life is hard.