Maybe we are all powerless. We all work hard to make sure that we don’t screw up things, but often, it just doesn’t work out. Today, it was my last time to go to the highland park high school. My supervisor and I agreed that it is better for me to terminate interning there. It was very emotional for me because I did (well, I still do!) love kids there, and also I worked so hard to be a good counselor. I was disappointed by myself, but I already processed in the past couple days. But, when my supervisor told me that the kids are having hard time dealing with the fact I am not coming back, it just hit me big. I am supposed to give comfort and therapeutic relationship to the students, but I failed in many ways to be a good therapist.

I have been pretty good student since I moved to the States, so it is hard to accept the fact I failed! Ooooooh!!! I need looooove!

It’s warm! Today is super warm! Yaaay! So, I went jogging for an hour, and it was awesome. Snow was melting all over the streets, and only things left are dogs’ poo!! Gross!!

I think I am going to have a meeting with faculty members next week. I really have to discuss with them about my situation and what I need to do in order to graduate. It is really sux. I also cannot stop thinking about students at the high school. I really shouldn’t be in the counseling program for sure!

Patriots won! Yaaaaay!! As huge Tom Brady fan, I am super bowl happy that Patriots won. Sorry Favre, I have to move on.

I decided that I will go to the gym everyday in this week. Well, since I have plenty of time, so far so good. Also, I decided that I am not going to drink any alcoholic beverage. I seriously need to lose 10-15lb! I have gained so much weight and it’s not even funny. So, this week is my super diet week and I am doing pretty good!

It was supposed to be warm today, and I think it was. Well, I went jogging in this morning and I was freezing. And in the afternoon, I just slept, so I don’t know if it was warm out today…. Mmmmm. I was supposed to study for NCE, but I keep procrastinating… Nummmmm.

I took a comprehensive exam on Sat. Yes, comp. In order to graduate, you gotta pass comp. Mmmmmm, coomp. Well, it sounds aweful, but actually, it wasn’t. The exam was almost joke. Ashley was saying that they were testing the ability to take a test! It was easy!!

Although the comp was easy, I wont be able to graduate this May. I had a meeting with faculty members (all faculty members at one meeting!!) last Thursday about my internship situation. I explained to them what happened and how I ended my internship. They were very understanding, but they didn’t think I am ready to find another internship. Actually, I don’t think I am ready to do another internship neither. I really didn’t pay attention to myself while I was doing internship. As a result, I was burnout! I wont be able to graduate this May, but I still can start my PhD program without giving up my counseling degree. Oh yeah!

Mmmmmmm…… If you have been to my place, you might know this, but my room doesn’t smell that good. Well, I am a boy, I sweat a lot, and I like procrastinating my laundry. Well, oh, and did I mention I live in tiny studio room which the air flow isn’t that great? I really didn’t care about my smelly room…..well, but not anymore. Every time I go to Ashley’s apt, her room smells good. So, I asked her how the hell she can maintain her room smell good despite she has baby puppy! Well, her secret was plug-in home fragrance. Mmmmmmm, well, yes, “plUg-in, pluuuug-in” thingy. She told me that she got her thingy from Bath and Body Works. I am learning so much from Ashley in these days. When I used her bath room, I noticed that my hands smelled really good. Why? Because she uses hand soap from Bath and Body Works! It’s cotton blossom smell! Of course, I did buy it…..three of them! Because the hand soap smells so good, I wash my hands too many times! Now, my hands are soooo dry!! Anyway, after I worked out, I stopped by the store. Mmmmm, seriously, I do not enjoy going in to the Bath and Body Works. The store is freaking bright and store staffs are wearing aprons!! And and, they have tons of candles and other smell good stuff!! Eww. Anyway, I ended up buying electric diffuser (some mint smell), car freshener (fresh linen…what the hack is smell of “fresh linen??”), and room spray (again…fresh linen). Now, my room does smell good, well, too good…. I am a little bit nauseous because of too much of fresh minty smell… What the fuck!

Ooooh, I bought lychee tea! Yay!